26/2/07 had 1 3 hrs lesson from 1230-1530. dont know why theres a lesson this week, but its damn weird. But it wasnt a wasted trip, because we all had fun! We were given 7 words to make a story out of it using only those 7 words and actions. The story just turned out crazy la.. haha.. pretty stupid. And then we were given 30 mins to come up with a story based on a fairy tale.. and our story was just sick la haha..and my grp members were just busy laughing at me because i sounded serious while make jokes. whatever i said they'll just laugh.. even if it wasnt a joke to me... i meet weird ppl in sch man..
Anywayz, its dad's birthday today. He's 61 this year. how time flies man. Imagine him 50 when i was only 12!! woh.. haha... i wished i had the mentality of now then. Its only when u grow older that u learn to treasure ur parents and start treating them well. And u suddenly realise that u have to thank them for everything. and no matter what u do, u can never finish thank-ing them. So anywayz, we went to farmart w sis and ashley and had prawns, big head, spinach, fish and chicken wings. food was pretty good.. and then we headed home..
The little girl came over and it was a plan to let dad see her for the first time. I think dad should be ok w her.. haha...
27/2/07 Woke up pretty early. Ate and sat down in front of the comp trying to find for a topic for the bloody essay i have to write. and until now i havent thought of a topic. So unproductive. But luckily, i met up with the little girl and then the guys which made my day.. I hope you'll enjoy the movies darling!! haha.. too bad no malay movies ah... haha... caught up w the guys and chat a bit.. played pool and then went for dinner.
Cant wait for the thailand trip too darling! See you real soon!
Its been 1.5 years
23:17
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
do your best so u dont regret
"A" who left the carpark at the same time. "A" whom i gave way to. "A" who was about 40 years old. "A" who rode across a junction. "A" who was travelling at 20-30km/h. "A" who was hit by a car. "A" who flew in front of me. "A" who sat there with an injured arm. "A" who had i not given way would have been in his place.
I went like **** what is this man... how can the driver not see him? gosh... was she dreaming? i stopped behind looking at the final scene, stunned.
Anywayz, term break is coming and its time to catch up and do my assignments and projects.. i hope i'll be able to complete what i planned next week... and of course finish up readings which seems endless...so tired man.. need a break...
Need to sleep man... anywayz, gonna go to vicky's bro's 21st birthday party. And relax a bit... else im gonna go crazy and the little girl will go crazy too..
This is one of the best jap pop bands that i know and they sing really good acapella. BEen listening to them since i was 17.
It hasnt been a good/bad lunar new year for me....
New year's eve...
Went to chinatown and squeeze squeeze squeeze... haha as usual, indian man tried pushing me.. and the deadly stare shrinked his balls... bought lots of muah chee and cookies and a pomelo for dad.. courtesy of sis's bf..
Day 1... Went to my grandparent's crematorium w my sis and mum. Drove my mum's car Latio. Poorly maintained.. tsk tsk.. no power and alignment was off.. haha...headed down to my uncle's place in the afternoon and had lunch there, catch up w cousins, etc.. Family gatherings are always the best. Anywayz, i decided to follow my sis to her bf's house and we had a short swim at his place. Its been a long time since i last swam w my sis. and then we sat down and chat about cars. My dad mentioned that he was intending on getting an OPC after new year which would be appropriate for us because we would probably only use it during weekends. It was quite a long chat. We moved on to playing card games w my sis, her bf, bf's bro and mum.
I shall pause here and talk about her bf's bro and mum. They're so "anything-goes" ppl which really makes it ironic because they live at river valley and supposingly they would be rich ppl. But they aren't corny or proud like how rich ppl are.. His mum's really friendly and warm-hearted. And his bro, a really nice man who will help as long as he can. And he's full of rubbish too just like my sis's bf. haha...
Anwayz, we played many rounds of gin rummy. and my sis lost all the rounds. The punishment was to put a hamster into ur shirt. i tried once. and it felt really ticklish haa... it was fun just gathering w them although they're like an avg of 10 years older than me..
We planned to meet up w my dad later that evening at hong bao river to walk that place together. however we didnt make it. I sat in my sis's car while her bf sat in his bro's car w his mum. As we were about to make a right turn, a lancer came charging into us and crashed into our car's front left. I was lucky enough to survive. Had my sis been any faster, the car would have smashed into my door. Anywayz, heres pics of the 2 cars..
haa... my sis's car is on the left and the ah beng's car is on the right... We were hit from the left side of the car and look at what was the dmg done. The beng got out of the car and scolded us "New year le, now i've got no car... This is a straight road u know" haha
We just ignored him and did what had to be done... and he just stood there helpless hahaa.. poor beng.. anywayz, after a while he called his friend saying that someone banged him...what a lie huh...haa...
We managed to escape w bruises....
Day 2...
Stayed at home and did my lab report.. but i spent a lot of time figuring out things.. ended up w nothing done..
Day 3...
Went out w the little girl to vivocity... and i knew beforehand we were going to hog's breath.. but didnt really expect the guys to be there. oh but there was a hint from med. she msged someone wrongly. ha.. so anywayz, i had a good time there... the food was pretty good.. and the guys got me sunglasses.. just what i needed...thanks for the plans darling.
the sunglasses my best friend chose... thanks jj!and also thanks don, kel, vicky and shirley. And especially DARLING!!
Oh and we cut the ice cream together... haha..And after being squeezed by the crowd at chinatown, i had to squeeze the little girl... hahaa..
Its the second funeral that i've heard about this year...
the 1st it was my sec sch classmate whom sat beside me in class in sec 1... he met an accident in m'sia while riding.... i didnt go to the wake because i was afraid i would be too affected by it..
I just came back from the 2nd one and its my poly friend's dad... walter was in the same course in poly and we went to the same unit in army (1MS) too... we went through OJT together and endured much shit through our first few months in our unit..and he was one of the jokers in camp and 1 of my mambo khakis.... it was a shocking news as i had initially contacted him asking him out for a gathering.. only to find out that his dad had passed away... i informed the rest and we all arranged to go down today.... I didnt feel that sad till i paid respect to his dad. As i offered joss sticks to his dad, i looked into the photograph... i could feel walter's sadness and i almost teared... he looked so tired and sad... depressed and despite these overwhelming emotions, he overcome them by smiling to us and talking to us as if he wasnt feeling sad at all...we sat down to chat for a while and whenever we mentioned about his dad, he'll seem as though he was gonna cry... but he controlled...we left after a while and he thanked us for coming down... he seemed all sad again..
the night before walter told me of his sad news, i had a dream...
i was a cub and i was taken away on an airplane and as i flew away, i could see my mother tiger (in the dream) fighting off 2 animals 1 of which seemed to me like a polar bear... years later i went back as a human in search for my mother tiger... i met a white rat which brought me to a cathedral.. as i opened the door, i cried immediately and as i walked towards the center of the cathedral, i realised that both my real parents had passed away.. and then i woke up...
i was relieved...
After knowing about walter's dad, i felt as if i had lost my dad too... and i wish that will never ever happen...
i remember blogging about my dad in my old blog 2 years back when i was still in NS... during that time, he was suffering from a breakdown.. he was seriously depressed... and i could do nothing to help as i was in BMT!! (so screw NS).... anyway, he has been fine then.. and what i said in that blog, i shall try to recall now...
"i hope everything turns out fine and that things will be settled...you're been my pillar of support since young, always guiding me, teaching me right from wrong.. although you've done many wrongs... but i'll still forgive you and treat u as my dad... and you'll always be my dad...i love you dad"
and that is what im gonna say today...
before i end, i would like to dedicate this song to walter's dad...on behalf of walter...
"In Loving Memory" - Alter Bridge
Thanks for all you've done I've missed you for so long I can't believe you're gone You still live in me I feel you in the wind You guide me constantly
I've never knew what it was to be alone, no Cause you were always there for me You were always there waiting And ill come home and I miss your face so Smiling down on me I close my eyes to see
And I know, you're a part of me And it's your song that sets me free I sing it while I feel I can't hold on I sing tonight cause it comforts me
I carry the things that remind me of you In loving memory of The one that was so true Your were as kind as you could be And even though you're gone You still mean the world to me
I've never knew what it was to be alone, no Cause you were always there for me You were always there waiting But now I come home and it's not the same, no It feels empty and alone I can't believe you're gone
And I know, you're a part of me And it's your song that sets me free I sing it while I feel I can't hold on I sing tonight cause it comforts me
I'm glad he set you free from sorrow I'll still love you more tomorrow And you will be here with me still
And what you did you did with feeling And You always found the meaning And you always will And you always will And you always will
And I know, you're a part of me And it's your song that sets me free I sing it while I feel I can't hold on I sing tonight cause it comforts me
Stress is a specific response by the body to a stimulus, as fear or pain, that disturbs or interferes with the normal physiological equilibrium of an organism.
To me, it is evil. It grabs me, kidnaps me, and throws me out into the open and i get sucked into the black hole... In scientific terms, it is detrimental to your physical health and mental health.
Often, its fear that bothers me.. Fear of not doing well in studies because i've got a heavy responsibility to shoulder once i graduate.... who else is gonna bring in money but me...But, we cannot devote 100% attention on a single matter/issue/problem/focus for a very long period of time. We'll need breaks in between... i was attending a lecture by the CEO of i-DNA who was telling us how to setup a company and he mentioned that we should take short breaks whenever we study... dont use all our energy to get good grades.. becuase then by the time we start to work, we would have lost all our stamina... I'm not believing this totally, but it makes some sense.
I was working on 2 reports for the past week and it has really drained me so much that i just didnt have the mood to do anything today after handing in the reports. And i am now guilty of not hitting the books and reading what i had planned beforehand.
It is in my nature to be specific in everything i do.. every details matter, every small problem is taken into consideration and every new problem gets me curious and wanting to find out and solve. I've been thinking a lot before i entered uni and i really hope that 1 day i'll be able to synthesis mutagenic cells which can make us smarter or probably w enhanced talents or abilities. Considering that these mutagents aren't harmful as they are now. It would be sold at $1k for 5ml perhaps? and my business will include selling bio-products and materials as well as bio-related services.
But as of now, i would just stick to the plan of becoming a Prof...
It is less than a week to CNY and i am really looking forward to it... cant wait for next week to come!
Oh and we cut the ice cream together... haha..And after being squeezed by the crowd at chinatown, i had to squeeze the little girl... hahaa..