Its the second funeral that i've heard about this year...
the 1st it was my sec sch classmate whom sat beside me in class in sec 1... he met an accident in m'sia while riding.... i didnt go to the wake because i was afraid i would be too affected by it..
I just came back from the 2nd one and its my poly friend's dad... walter was in the same course in poly and we went to the same unit in army (1MS) too... we went through OJT together and endured much shit through our first few months in our unit..and he was one of the jokers in camp and 1 of my mambo khakis.... it was a shocking news as i had initially contacted him asking him out for a gathering.. only to find out that his dad had passed away... i informed the rest and we all arranged to go down today.... I didnt feel that sad till i paid respect to his dad. As i offered joss sticks to his dad, i looked into the photograph... i could feel walter's sadness and i almost teared... he looked so tired and sad... depressed and despite these overwhelming emotions, he overcome them by smiling to us and talking to us as if he wasnt feeling sad at all...we sat down to chat for a while and whenever we mentioned about his dad, he'll seem as though he was gonna cry... but he controlled...we left after a while and he thanked us for coming down... he seemed all sad again..
the night before walter told me of his sad news, i had a dream...
i was a cub and i was taken away on an airplane and as i flew away, i could see my mother tiger (in the dream) fighting off 2 animals 1 of which seemed to me like a polar bear... years later i went back as a human in search for my mother tiger... i met a white rat which brought me to a cathedral.. as i opened the door, i cried immediately and as i walked towards the center of the cathedral, i realised that both my real parents had passed away.. and then i woke up...
i was relieved...
After knowing about walter's dad, i felt as if i had lost my dad too... and i wish that will never ever happen...
i remember blogging about my dad in my old blog 2 years back when i was still in NS... during that time, he was suffering from a breakdown.. he was seriously depressed... and i could do nothing to help as i was in BMT!! (so screw NS).... anyway, he has been fine then.. and what i said in that blog, i shall try to recall now...
"i hope everything turns out fine and that things will be settled...you're been my pillar of support since young, always guiding me, teaching me right from wrong.. although you've done many wrongs... but i'll still forgive you and treat u as my dad... and you'll always be my dad...i love you dad"
and that is what im gonna say today...
before i end, i would like to dedicate this song to walter's dad...on behalf of walter...
"In Loving Memory" - Alter Bridge
Thanks for all you've done I've missed you for so long I can't believe you're gone You still live in me I feel you in the wind You guide me constantly
I've never knew what it was to be alone, no Cause you were always there for me You were always there waiting And ill come home and I miss your face so Smiling down on me I close my eyes to see
And I know, you're a part of me And it's your song that sets me free I sing it while I feel I can't hold on I sing tonight cause it comforts me
I carry the things that remind me of you In loving memory of The one that was so true Your were as kind as you could be And even though you're gone You still mean the world to me
I've never knew what it was to be alone, no Cause you were always there for me You were always there waiting But now I come home and it's not the same, no It feels empty and alone I can't believe you're gone
And I know, you're a part of me And it's your song that sets me free I sing it while I feel I can't hold on I sing tonight cause it comforts me
I'm glad he set you free from sorrow I'll still love you more tomorrow And you will be here with me still
And what you did you did with feeling And You always found the meaning And you always will And you always will And you always will
And I know, you're a part of me And it's your song that sets me free I sing it while I feel I can't hold on I sing tonight cause it comforts me
